Confessions: Happy New Year 2018, I'm Done with New Resolutions.

Every new year I make the same resolutions. Every new year I seemingly accomplish about 25% of them all while the other 75% somehow got lost along the way leaving me feeling like a pure failure. I must admit, the lack of dedication by years end I have for my goals never ceases to amaze me. The drive and intense desire I have in the beginning of each year to succeed really gives me no doubt that I will reach each and every goal. Clearly, I have overestimated myself. This year is different, I am different. For better or for worse, 2018 has started off profoundly different for me in comparison to each new year within the last decade. I've lost someone very dear to me. Through self-reflection, This past month I have found some faults in my logic and personality traits I see are better off rehabilitated. I lost that someone, and it is my fault. I want to grow as a human being. I do not want to change the fact that I don't follow the herd, but I also need to be someone that can see past his own arrogance to assume I am always right. Resolution. By definition, it is a firm decision to do or not to do something. This year I'm going to live like a free spirit. Sure I will have goals, but I will not force them upon myself to live like they control my life. I no longer want to live a life with no more grey areas. So goodbye new year resolution. I will let myself live life as happily and productive or unproductive as I feel like from now on. My mental health seems to take priority this year, but due to joining the upscale luxury gym Equinox, my physical health goals won't seem to be a problem and will happen organically.